I’ve been on lockdown for five weeks now and despite trying to have a routine to my day in place, I’m all out at sea. Basically, I’m in ‘Lockdown Limbo’. I’ve come to the realisation that  although the idea of time- tabling the day seems great in theory, it doesn’t necessarily work for me in practice.

Self-isolating

You see, I am self- isolating  I have no one to home school, and unlike many of my friends and family, I do not have a job keeping me on my toes, with meetings over zoom or an over-zealous boss person calling me up to every minute of the day to ensure I’m actually working for the money I am still being paid. 

What to do?

 The longer the lockdown, the more disjointed becomes my day. This is because sometimes I just don’t want to do what I tell myself I should be doing. Why should I be doing this now ? I ask myself, and sometimes, I just don’t have the answer, so I do something else like watch TV.

But watching TV is like eating lots of chocolate; you know it’s not good for you but you just can’t help yourself. But what else is there to do?

The New Normal?

There is undeniably a thousand and one things that I could be doing. If this was a normal holiday, where I had a finite amount of time to get things done (with the notion that when I go back to work, I wouldn’t be able to do these things), I would make myself do it.

Embracing  Limbo Lockdown

Now in this seemingly never ending single person isolation situation I’m in, getting things done is solely dependent on my mood, which swings back and forth, up and down, in an unpredictable manner. Each day just seems to merge into another. But after much navel grazing, I’ve come to the conclusion that I will simply embrace this ‘Lockdown Limbo’. I’ll do what I am inspired to, when I am inspired to do it; go with the flow and don’t feel guilty for doing nothing.